Saturday, July 13, 2013

Tomes, They Are A'changing

My stress levels have gone down a lot.  I made lists of what I need to do and I'm following them. I find that when I'm getting overwhelmed, usually creating lists helps.  What I found this time is that I don't really have a lot I have to do, just a lot that I want to do. Now that it is Lt all jumbled in my head, I'm much better.

Until next time, much love and peace....

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Slogging Through my Brain

Here I am, just back from a lovely vacation, and my stress levels are through the roof.  I'm supposed to be totally relaxed, but people are just sending my problems left and right.  It's a busy time at work, and I can't get anything done.  Everything is a priority, which means that nothing is a priority.  Sigh . . ..

Then today, I got a package from the courts that I didn't complete my divorce paperwork correctly, so I have to go in and have someone help me.   One more thing to schedule in my hectic schedule and it has to be done so I can get this shit finalized.

Oh well, I am strong and this blip in the road will not get me down.

Until later, much love and peace.

Monday, July 8, 2013

A New Direction

I haven't posted much lately, because I've been going through a lot of personal changes.

I'm in the middle of a divorce and even though everyone know it, it's been difficult for me to express myself. I wanted the divorce, but I can't help feeling like I've failed. Even though I did everything I could to make it work, it takes two. There are a lot of things I could sit here and blame him for, but ultimately, we both just stopped trying.

It's sad really, because all the things I wanted him to do with me, he is now doing with his new girlfriend. I'm happy for him, but can't help but wonder why he couldn't do these things with me. I guess I broke him in for her, but damn....25 years of hell on my end.

I'm more sad because he has no relationship with his son. He tried to tell the Boy about wanting to date this girl, but what he doesn't realize is that we both saw the nasty messages between him and this girl before we even finally separated. He is just clueless and still tries to say they are just starting out. Mind you...he lives with her too.  Oh well, not my problem.

I do have a "new" love interest and we are taking it one day at a time. He is also going through a separation/divorce and we are trying to work it all out. He lives in another state, so it is difficult at times. I did get to see him recently and when we're together, things are beautiful. He treats me like a queen. Even if it doesn't work out with us, at least I know there are men out there that do treat their women right.

So for now, I'll keep doing me and remembering who me is. I lost myself for a very long time and now I'm remembering what a fun, vibrant person I really am.

Until next time...much love and peace....